So, okay, I’m cheating on yesterday’s P365. I’ll update the P365 photos first, and then I’ll explain.
Day 33: Wes at the breakfast table, bed-head and all. Love this kid!
Day 34 (sorta): Sadie having an absolute blast playing outside! She had fun peeking through the board slats on the bottom of the treehouse, saying “Peek-oo!” (peekaboo). She also kept climbing up into the treehouse (yes, I held my breath every time she started up the ladder and held my hands up behind her ready to catch her if she fell; and if you don’t understand why I was so nervous, you can read this old blog post to see the size of this treehouse). She slid down the slide at least 1 million times, each time saying “wuh mo tigh, mama, wuh mo tigh” (one more time) with her “1″ finger held up. Soooo cute! I love this age!
Day 35: And last, one of Sadie and me, taken with my old point-and-shoot as we were waiting for Wes & Claire to get out of school. (Side note #1 – I think my p&s is biting the dust. It will still take pics, obviously, but it wouldn’t display the picture on the screen after taking it. Stange.) (Side note #2 – while the shadow in this picture makes it look so, my teeth on my left side [right side looking at picture] are not actually gray and rotten!)
Okay, so now the explanation of why Day 34′s photo was actually from Day 33. First, I reserve the right to complete this P365 project however I see fit! Haha! Second, I took plenty of pictures on Day 33, so I could borrow one. Third, and the main reason, yesterday was a really bad day.
I’ve never been one to just go around blaming the devil for everything; just not my style. But I really feel like I was kind of under attack yesterday. I woke up not feeling terribly bad, but not good. Sinus issues, like normal lately. But I just had a very serious case of the “blah’s”. And by that I mean, I was just depressed. It was a rainy, gloomy day anyway; and I’m not joking when I say that I think the weather (or maybe, more like lack of sunshine) can effect my mood after a certain amount of time.
But I think that the devil was kinda out to get me. John 10:10 says
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy;
He definitely stole, killed and destroyed my day, along with anything I might have accomplished. I mean, just the day before I had this whole post about how I had such peace about where I am in life, leading worship or not, “just” being Wife & Mommy, knowing that God knows what my future holds. Then I have a day where all I want to do is lay in the bed. all. day. long. It was awful.
Plus, I got physically very sick. I hadn’t really eaten much that morning (not so unusual), and was about to start to eat lunch, but I started feeling awful. My little sinus pressure turned into an extremely horrible sinus migraine. I think my blood sugar just completely bottomed out — I got really shaky and couldn’t eat and felt like I was going to pass out. I even called hubby and asked him to pick the kids up from school. It was that bad. After some rest, I got over the headache and sick feeling, but didn’t regain much of an appetite and was weak because of it the rest of the night.
So, because I barely made it through the day standing up (and parts of it were definitely not standing up), I certainly didn’t take out my camera. There’s the story. I hate days like that and am thankful I don’t have them often.
One great thing about this is that I’m telling it. I spent a lot of my life trying to look and act just right. Usually only my family (and more specifically, my husband, so very lucky for him) got to see the not-so-nice side of Kresta. I still fight that, and for some reason, still find myself trying to have the appearance that all is perfect in Kresta-land. But I’m learning and trying. So, this is the real stuff. And I think people appreciate the real and genuine so much more than anything put-on and fake. I know that I definitely want to know people for who they really are.
Especially in light of Christianity – nobody wants to see a fake Christian, at least I for sure do not. Yes, I’m a Christian. But I’m also a real person with real-life “stuff”, just like everyone else. I just happen to have a Savior to help me through it; One who has gone before me to the cross, on my behalf, and taken all of my “stuff” with Him.
Today has been a good day. Still gloomy outside, but my spirit is somehow refreshed. Thank You, Lord. And, I’m looking forward to a wonderfully relaxing weekend with my family.
Hope you have a good weekend as well!
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